Wednesday, December 21, 2016


I have landed in Union Square, the heart of San Francisco California… It is a lot like Times Square the heart of Manhattan New York.

I have been here before years ago. A very cold summer in July for my brother in laws graduation from college.

Hustle and Bustle... Tis the season… I love the holiday vibe of the Christmas music playing everywhere and all the shopping that is going on.

I love to people watch and there are all flavors. My faves that stood out??? The older fit lady with the most beautiful natural looking lavender two tone hair that had the depth like a natural looking highlight in such a complimentary gray lavender shade. She had an average “normal” look/haircut/curl/bob. I not only crossed her path once but twice. Not a happy looking lady.

The other fave that stood out… the lady singing on the corner with her ukulele… is it rude to take photos??? Not if I tip I bet… That would have been good money spent… she had a look, she had a sound…

There are so many people… so many homeless… A flavor that I have gotten real comfortable with working at Lahaina Harbor. Fear is the unknown and Lahaina Harbor has educated me on the homeless… Homeless are people that I myself have been. People that have lived a life… Everyone has a story, it all makes sense when you hear it and know it. Young and old… Some are “Trust Fund babies” and some are stuck on a trip in another dimension… Some are able to build themselves back up feeling worthy/lovable regaining a sense of belonging here on this planet... and some just disappear for everyone to wonder “Hey, what ever happened to them”.

I have loved the unconditional love and understanding that the Lahaina Harbor peeps show for these homeless people that are becoming so thick amongst us it is starting to become an epidemic… everywhere.

As I roam around the city escorted by a personal “body guard” friend, I am attracting too much attention from those homeless flavors. I accept their sincere “sane” compliments and attempts of striking up nice conversation that I enjoy but recognize the linger of them not wanting to end the small talk and thank you Jamie for intervening and not allowing it to continue. But honestly, I enjoy and love all flavors of people like a casting of a great play.

But is what I found “crazy”… the only people that seemed to have smiles and give eye contact were the “crazy” and the homeless. Everyone else has a great invisible wall up.

Living on Maui I have been able to lower my invisible wall, heal old wounds and fill my cup. My heart is so filled with happiness I don’t see fear in allowing this happiness and love over flow to others that enter my space no matter the flavor.

I'm enjoying my walk about so far. Im living in the moment day by day and today was a great one.


Sunday, December 11, 2016


Floating like a butterfly… or jellyfish as I’ve been accused… is getting more and more magical.
I am about to leave Maui for a small walk about on the Mainland… believe me, I WILL BE RIGHT BACK.

I’m recognizing Mother Maui saying its time. .. How divine… My dear nephew Elden and his wife are expecting their first child and a coed (that’s how they do these days YAY!) shower is on the schedule before I am to go.

Folks it gets better…

My other nephew Jade, Elden’s brother arrives on island days prior last minute (SURPRISE)… with more familiar faces from the past (love those Boxer brothers).

Shoots… I’m so excited to see everyone, planning on carpooling with my sister Pati to Kula in my Maui $400 cruiser… Until…

It is raining it is pouring the old man is snoring!!!

I call Jade let him know I may not make it… car struggles in good weather and I have already killed my Jeep on that hill. Jade being such the master of problem solving and bringing people together, informs me that this is a coed shower and my dear Jr. (bonus nephew part of the pact) is planning on attending.

Jr meets me in Maalaea coming from Kihei and delivers Kirah (my daughter) and me to the shower.

Seriously as soon as he pulls in the driveway his girlfriend calls and needs him. He unexpectedly needed to go pick her up and was planning on getting her and coming right back. … I Recognize the magic of the orchestration of a personal escort from that bonus “nephew” of mine that tends to show up exactly when I need a “son's” help. Filled with gratitude for the quality time we had on the way, I shower him with hugs and kisses goodbye in case he doesn’t make it back… (which he didn’t, which makes it that more magical that he showed up just to make sure this matriarch of this family made it to the party.)

Had a lovely time representing for my sister Toni, Eldens mother. She has represented for me so many times with my kids. No introduction needed… we could be twins. It was so lovely to be received with such love from the new and outstanding receiving love from the old!!! Not only were the boys there but my other sister Kdawn showed up with her fam! Love this androgynous coed times we live in… no exclusions, all welcome!

Well, before I even realized that Jr was not making it back, my dear Becca rolls in to join the party… Of course she would… If y’all haven’t read book 4 let me fill you in… she is one of my four June 26 birthday soul mates… The others being my sisters Pati, Toni, and Elden’s brother Chance… of course she would make a showing making this energetic circuit complete. And even more divine she give me a ride back to my car in Maalaea.

DUDES… WHERE ARE MY CAR KEYS???... Yeah, y’all read right… I got a little distracted by the assorted blue candy buffet upon leaving (they’re having a boy)… God bless Becca and Kevin for their peace love and UNDERSTANDING … I hate it when I get distracted and do something as stupid as leaving my only set of keys in Kula… With Kirah’s patience and my acknowledgement that yes I know … Becca and Kevin had no problem chilling until we figured it out and totally helped me stay calm… I get ahold of my boys and within minutes keys are found, and my dear Robert gets to bring them to me on his way home later. Kevin, Becca, Kirah and I continue on to Lahaina enjoying the quality time once again.

Robert arrived a few hours later with my keys and I was able to once again congratulate him on his new little growing family, acknowledging my gratitude for the orchestration having such quality time with each and every one of them all in the name of losing my keys; Universe making sure this matriarch got to this event and back.

Folks… best part of the story yet… for you see, I still have to get my car that is parked in Maalaea…
Upon waking… my dear friend whom has obviously been assigned/contracted to make sure this chickadee is happy and safe is letting me know he might as well get on it and ride the bus and get my car but saying it with too much of an edge for the morning… so I tell him to don’t worry about it Universe takes care of me and he can just forget about it, I got this...

Seriously, as soon as those words rolled off my lips … (after our kind of heated discussion of my way of following your heart and it all works out over his way of use your brain and make it happen)… my landlord’s lady comes downstairs because her phone is acting up and she needs to use my phone, she needs to be in Kihei asap… (which takes her right past my car in Maalaea).

You don’t say… I need a ride”…  And as soon as it was agreed that she could give me a lift, her phone magically was fixed, (well, with a little help from a young’un that rolled up right at that time).

Folks, I have loved the orchestration of going with the flow following my heart, staying happy and then as a loud I TOLD YOU SO on HOW TO ROLL… the timing at the end of this distraction of losing my keys has been the best part of the Baby Shower Event in Kula 

Thursday, November 17, 2016


Ya know... Lucifer, Hitler & the likes whom are similar to this air... they mean well, they think they are doing the best for humanity... BUT... there is a subtle difference from... Jesus, the Pope & the likes whom are similar to this air.

Lets just give the parable about the story of the war in heaven... just to simplify and explain to get my message across... Mother Earth had two sons, one "GOOD" and one "EVIL"... They both wanted the best for humanity and wanted to serve... BUT... Lucifer wanted things to be done his way "and if they don't" he "will make sure they do or else"... Jesus said, "let them do things how they want, when they want, how to do, if they do, when they do and there will be exponential growth for the collective of consciousness of all to gain from "mistakes" finding new ways.

Lucifer wanted all the glory, being acknowledged as the "Savior" the one that saved... he wanted to be the one on top with the crown... in an egotistical way... Jesus wanted US all to have the glory, having the "Savior" the one that saves US is within US all... he wanted US all to be back together collectively as equals.

How ironic that the way of Jesus is so mirroring yet with an edge... subtle difference... yet he is one whom bore the crown, but of thorns, enduring the pain showing us humility. Being in such a state of allowance, allowing himself to be the example to all... an example of his endurance of all aches and pains without any blame or curse to others... enduring every step of the way, always with LOVE in his heart to give him the strength to carry on.

As burdens/aches/pains get loud... believe it or not but consciousness lives forever... we have choice how we handle... there is no right or wrong, take as long as you like... helping/waiting for others on the way... ITS ALL GOOD... but in my witness to life, things happen for a very divine good reason... to know up we need to know down... we tend to get comfortable in down if we have been there a while... Life will get louder until we can experience all roles... BUTCHER AND THE COW... when one goes down, one must acknowledge, accept and receive others help and service with humility... accepting the help anyway it comes.

One can be so resistant to having things be done a different way. It can and will be orchestrated that one will be the receiver without ability to be the giver... making one feel on the bottom... which is the beauty of the Jesus... we are all equals... ONE... expanding our knowledge without force.

Be in a state of allowance with humility in your heart. Be full of love, focused on happy... allowing happiness to be your guide... following your heart... no force... no thinking... JUST BE WITH HUMILITY.

Let the children lead us guiding us with their examples of innocence and pure love.