Wednesday, July 25, 2012

"23"

Well folks, we have arrived!!! Dallen and I said goodbye to the house, Kirah, the dog and Steve on Friday the 13th… July 13, 2012 My daughter Kirah was not interested leaving all of her friends in Utah to go start a new life in Hawaii with Dallen and me. She arranged to move in with my sister Toni… Makes sense, we are always swapping children, helping one another raise these children of ours. My nephews, Chance & Elden, had been living with me for a while and had no intentions (so they thought) to join us on our journey… they loved the sounds of it… they kept saying …“if only this” or “if only that“… BUT the night before we were to roll out of here they both pretty much said they couldn’t see themselves NOT going. So at the last minute, literally, they were packing for Hawaii. I sold my 67 Mustang and got the money to start over. Steve always hated this Mustang of mine. He was always a Camero Chevy guy. Steve thought it was such a money pit but once we spent the whopping $35,000 and restored it from the ground up, this beauty (Betty) of mine purred and was pretty low maintenance. I drove her as my everyday car. Over the years Steve has tried to get me to sell Betty, she was my only asset I had brought into this marriage and I was not going to give her up. I would always say, “I won’t sell that car until I need to provide a roof over my head”.
Well, that time had come… My dear husband of 23 years whom I married on July 23rd, two years after we had lost our first born son to adoption that was born on December 23rd, and he then blessed me with an opportunity to practice what I preach, “Love One Another ‘Adopt’ the Mother”, (he had a midlife crises and brought in my space, a little girl, born on January 23rd.) Steve could not numb his pain good enough to ignore the loss, shame and guilt of losing not only our son to adoption, but another son 6 months later, he just couldn’t get off of that record player and I finally was able to walk away with no bitterness towards him… Wow… Do you see all the 23’s in this story? Not to mention that Betty’s odometer stopped working on 23000 miles… Interesting… what does 23 mean??? … Well, according to Doreen Virtue, whom I love and admire… 23… means… “You are working closely with one or more ascended masters such as Jesus, Moses, the saints, or the goddesses. This is a message from your ascended master guides, who can see that the answer to your prayers is within reach. They encourage you to stay positive to ensure that you attract the best possible outcome “ Well, I must say… Yep… that about sums it up in a nutshell, right? lol. I most definitely have finally reached that best possible outcome that I obviously attracted by staying positive!!! HELL YA, PRAISE THE LORD, JESUS, MOSES, THE SAINTS AND THE GODDESSES!!!

1 comment:

  1. So sad you had to sell Betty..But excited for your new life..xoxo Shurtz family. in Slc.ut

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